Maxine didn't call last night - she knows I'm strong so maybe thought I didn't need any moral support. No-one to tell that I was made redundant either, must go through my address book and find someone! Wine was good last night, but it made me sick around 3am this morning - note to self, keep off the Liebfraumilch!! Had time to check myself out in the mirror this morning, MUST lose some weight and MUST sort out the wrinkles.

Still in slippers and Ging Gown (pet word for dressing gown..... cute eh?) Need to really focus on what to do next. Found myself checking out Gone Too Soon web-site today, things must be bad.

Just finished watching a daytime documentary on Africa and Charity work carried out there by Gap Year students......... I could do that, in fact Charidy sounds just up my street, I've donated to Oxfam several times and once shook a charity box outside Woolworths for a whole Saturday afternoon, so I definitely think I have got what it takes to be selfless, and to give me a purpose in life.

He who should not be named called round this morning to collect the ornamental bird bath from the garden, he didn't think I was in (thought I was at work) - the way he sneaked through the Honeysuckle was pathetic, and what made it more worthwhile to watch was the fact it was covered in newly dumped bird shit, and in his hurry to STEAL it, he failed to notice a great big streak of green/white shite down the front of his nice suit. Why does he want the bird bath?......... I guess Carole (with an eeeeeeee) must have put him up to it, maybe she intends to start a bird sanctuary to match that sanctimonious, smug, pug like face of hers. Who cares?? I don't. Time for a chocolate digestive or 12.

Will start weight loss programme tomorrow, but some L'Oreal (cos I'm worth it) and apply to some Charities.